I was married for over a decade to the man I met when I was 17 years of age. Why the marriage came to an end is a sad and complicated story, although the easy explanation is that I had an affair. Except that isn’t the reason for anything except the start of a life changing journey of self discovery and analogy.
I suffered from severe depression during the time that the affair began until about a year after the divorce (give or take 18 months). It was so severe that I was hospitalised at one point. I had literally given up and broke. I no longer had the will to live. I and everyone else had assumed the depression was due to the difficult time I was going through. However, 3 years later, I find myself at breaking point again and on anti-depressants, and realising that my depression is not situation-related. I believe it’s chemically induced or due to hormonal issues.
I went onto Tinder 3 years ago and have been off and on the app during this time. I have so much to share about my thoughts about dating, the app itself and of course the stories! Don’t get me wrong – I’m actually on a path to try and find a partner. I want to fall in love.
And I think a lot. About everything.